Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Forgetting and forgiving

I am slightly embarrassed to even write or think about this, but sometimes you just got to face the music and deal. That is what this is all about. I've most definitely raced some races that I'd really rather forget even happened. This past Sunday was no exception to that. I would love to just erase any evidence that I even entered my name into this particular meet.
Somewhere in my mind I again I thought that I was ready to race. That couldn't have been farther from the truth, I was not even an iota ready. For me there's something about lacing up my spikes and taking it to the rubber that gets me ridiculously excited. It's a good thing when I'm on point and properly training but a bad thing when I'm out of my game. This time around I wasn't prepared. I knew that I wasn't top performance material but I really thought that I could at least hit respectable times in the races I planned on running. Back to the post of 'You get what you give'. 
I will not divulge any times or even what meet it was, but I will take account for the poor performance, log it in my mental mind, and remember I don't want to see those times again. I will not be hard on myself like I would in the past, forgive, and take control of the one thing that links itself to performance and that I can control, my training. Time to step up to plate.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Breaking Promises

I know that I promised I would keep up this blog a bit better this year, I clearly have not lived up to that task. Truthfully though I haven't really been keeping up with my running like I have the past couple of years. It's been a rough couple of months trying to get myself together in this new city. After 3 months of the move I finally found a job, not what I really wanted but something. I had an immense amount of time on my hands but I wasn't able to muster the energy to get out and get moving. The motivation to do anything just wasn't there, it's hard to get excited about one thing when you so worried about everything else. I know that shouldn't be an excuse but that's exactly what happened, I got completely wrapped up in trying to find a job and worrying about how I was going to pay my bills as the savings pool was running dry, I stopped enjoying the thing that makes me happy. Even after I secured the job I was still to busy working as much as possible I didn't have the energy to start my training up again. Then finally I decided enough was enough and I needed to jump into my "pool" again for the umpteenth time these past seasons.
I started off my training with an easy couple of mile runs, feeling better I started my search for a track since my membership to the Armory had ended. Never thought that it would be a such a task. In Boston there is an abundance of outdoor tracks, from high schools, to colleges, to public, so I figured that since NY is so much bigger that my possibilities would be just as endless if not better. Ha boy was I wrong! I realize now that just because it's bigger it just means that there's a lot more buildings not real estate. Though I think that the city prides itself in it's parks, those parks with track facilities are far and few between and for me most of them are a good 45 min commute to get to. In determination not to let that be my set back and took it to the road to modify a pseudo track workout. Not sure how it will stand up when I can't make it to the track but I guess we'll see as time goes on.